Until I am speechless

I want to write all night,
I don't want to sleep,
not at all.

I just want to write until my mind
goes completely blank.
Until I am sick to my stomach...
Until my hand and arm give out.

I want to throw all thoughts and memories
on paper.
I want to escape this world.
...this long and lonely night.

I want to feel free.

I want to write her a love song.
One she will never forget...
I want to write everyone in my life a letter,
exposing my true self to them.
Tell them that if I am okay with who I am,
they should be okay with it too.

I am going to explain everything tonight.

Let me write it all tonight...
Until the ink on this pen
slowly fade away...

Until I feel...... free.